Bad day

Hy bloggie... see you again after a really long hiatus. I was so busy so i can't share my life with you. But today i'm give a little time for myself to write what i felt soo heavy inside. So, i need to take it out all without anyone know about it. I hate my school where i am teaching right now. I hate it, when every one can easily complain about my teaching. I hate it when some ignorant people who don't know how to teach teaching me how to teach my students. I really felt offended about that. I hate it REally... when i heard that i'm trying to reconsiliation with myself. How can i give feedback to that person about my teaching.. but they are just a loosers. Just wanna me fall down. I don' t want to teach anymore after i know this. They even want to fired me from my job.. i'm trying my best to teach them so their kids be able to speak in english. But thaf stupid parent doesn't want their kids smart. They want their student ŕ

My (friends) Wedding

look at the title, hope that i can delete the word in the middle.. haha.. i'm 25 now and that’s the perfect age to get married for a girl.. ehemm.. haha.. and there are some friends of mine who has done it. (lucky them) . hope I can follow them. Aamin.. here are some friends of mine who’s got married recently..

 dia's wedding (she was the chairperson in my class )

 iwik's wedding (she is my korean wave partner) 

winda's wedding ( dadok's residents)

septri and beri (both of them are my classmate and they become one and the only couple made in my class ) 

Ibal and yuli (one) ibal is known as technician in my class. haha bcoz he can repair our laptop. and its free. her wife is also my friend in K-5/10. 

and one more husna (uncu ) i cant find a photo of her wedd.. but its okay. congrats all my friends who have found their soulmate. hope it will last forever. be SAMAWA's family.. aamin..

LONG time no see my blog..

        Too long not write in this blog. Feels a little bit awkward, but I’ll just try to cover everything in short. Well what I’ve done so far in my hiatus time in writing my diary? Much happened to me in the last 2 years after i graduated. Oh yea i haven't told you that I’ve graduated in September 2015. ha-ha with many things happened before the graduation i graduated from it at last, nothing that I regret from that. I just think that there is no word "easy" in this life. You must do the process before you get the result. i always say it to myself but sometimes it really hard to do it in the real time. Still, I need much more to learn. There are three works that I’ve done so far. All of them are just a temporary work.

At first I got a job in a course as a teacher.  After I graduated I still confuse what I want to do next. I just feel that I don’t deserve to be a teacher, so I tried to apply in some personal company. Eventually, some of the companies not accept the applier with background as the educator. I don’t know why. So, I try to apply in a course close by my house and I worked for three months there. The salary is not much but, I need the experience. So I think it’s worth to do.  I got the experience how to teach there.

After I worked in that course I applied in a Govt company called BPS. It’s a company that responsible to do the census in this country. That was the censuses to figure what business do by people in this country. We also ask about the profit per month and how long they do the business. It’s a work in the field. I need to visit every business in my area. Every person got their area to do census.  Its good work I think with a really good salary. Hahaha. But it’s just a contract work in a month. Really hope I can work there but, there is no vacant for people majoring in education.

Then now, I work in a junior high school in Tabing, as a teacher of course. I work there because one of my friend’s acquaintances needs a substitute teacher to teach her class while she’s giving birth. I accept that offer in fact that I had been being unemployment for five months. I need a job and I accept the offer.  The job is just for three months and the salary? Hmm its so..so but Alhamdulillah. I taught for three days there. Still I have many days off and I want to fill it with another job. And it’s the last week I teach there I haven’t found the job. I really want to find a permanent job.

That’s all that I’ve done in this 2 years. Hope that LUCK will running come to me. Bissmillah, ready to find a new job. Fighting … I can do it.. remember you need to do the process. Enjoy it.

Song of the day

Really love this song. I play it everyday. the melody is just stick with my ear.. love it. and the lyric also suit with my experience... hihi. here the lyric. 

HIVI!

"Pelangi"

Ku ingin cinta hadir untuk selamanya
Bukan hanyalah untuk sementara
Menyapa dan hilang
Terbit tenggelam bagai pelangi
Yang indahnya hanya sesaat
Tuk kulihat dia mewarnai hari

Tetaplah engkau di sini
Jangan datang lalu kau pergi
Jangan anggap hatiku jadi tempat persinggahanmu
Untuk cinta sesaat

Mengapa ku tak bisa jadi cinta yang takkan pernah terganti
Cinta yang takkan terjadi
Lalu mengapa kau masih di sini
Memperpanjang harapan

Tetaplah engkau di sini
Jangan datang lalu kau pergi
Jangan anggap hatiku jadi tempat persinggahanmu
Untuk cinta sesaat

Kau bagai kapal yang terus melaju
Di luasnya ombak samudera biru
Namun sayangnya kau tak pilih aku
Jadi pelabuhanmu

Tetaplah engkau di sini
Jangan datang lalu kau pergi
Jangan anggap hatiku jadi tempat persinggahanmu
Bila tak ingin di sini
Jangan berlalu-lalang lagi
Biarkanlah hatiku mencari cinta sejati
Wahai cintaku
Wahai cinta sesaat

Thesis warior..

Hai all bloggers .. I am back. Today I just stay at home. I've got the signature of ACC seminar from my first lecturer but with several conditions. She. Asked me to do observation to get more problems. She told me that my thesis is lack of problems. The problem on my thesis is not clear. I want to meet my second lecturer first before I go to the school where I intend to do the observation of my thesis. I choose one school that I think is the best school in my country. But the problem is I don't have any relative or someone I know there. From my experience , I think it will be hard if we don't have any relative there. I am afraid that the teacher will not cooperated well when I do the observation. What If I can't do the observation? Those all had been caused the stress of me. Last night I even couldn't sleep bcause of that. I am trying be positive thinker right now. I haven't try it yet but I become very pessimistic. GOD help me.. Bismillah.. Just think of my graduation,,,